Kubrik
I've been chewing on my own heart
I
Brother I can’t understand a word you’re saying.
This is no different than the waiting room
[Prime time]
[El Mistral play]
How many dog years
[Readers digest]
[8th grade physics]
Meanwhile Kubrik is chewing on bone
Having the time of his life
A life that will ‘only’ last 15 years
[thinking about that boy]
[Nokia snake game]
I’ve lived less than a dog
II
[work worry work]
[El Nacional articles]
[all you can eat buffet lunch coma]
[control freak experience]
[worry work work]
[a gun shaped machine scorching my scalp and torturing my eardrums so you don’t have to look at my real hair]
[accounting classes]
[parties you never enjoyed]
[messenger]
[2 am phonecalls]
[the news]
Where have you been what have you done all these years?
I’ve been chewing on my own heart
I’ve lived less than a dog
III
[90s sad ballad melanchol infusing]
[market vs Keynes]
[liberal vs conservative]
[MTV Los diez más pedidos]
[boy bands]
[ego building]
[telenovelas]
[all the zoom meetings]
[every classic rivalry]
[work scroll cry]
[daddy-issues-paralysis]
[Avril Lavigne]
[white walls and square spaces]
[worry indulge delay]
[chew on melanchol gum teeth rotting]
[San Francisco]
[every sales pitch]
[career building]
I’ve lived less than a day
I came up with this text after watching a podcast where this mentalist was comparing human life to dog years, he was basically saying a dog actually lives more because it spends more time doing what it wants to do while we slave away and do what others want us to do. Anyway I started listing everything I’ve done and do that I now consider a waste of time (everything in brackets). Have I lived less than a day? Okay maybe I’m exaggerating, maybe it’s been more like a week. Lazarus Morell, oh please release me, I beg!
Also while writing this, Mother (Pink Floyd) was playing in the back of my head. That’s probably why it starts with Brother… and that part kind of doesn’t make sense. (It doesn’t matter, just take it in).
Last side note: Kubrik is the name of my grandma’s dog in the novel I’m currently writing, I may translate that scene where he’s mentioned and post it later… Until then, I’ll think of you while I’m offline.
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